Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
Saturday, December 04, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Shepherd turned a month old yesterday. It has without a doubt been the craziest month of my life, and I mean that in the best possible way.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Saturday, November 06, 2010
...swimming on hot summer evenings.
...eating candy corn in the fall.
...the number I saw on the scales before I got pregnant (but I'm still keeping my fingers crossed that I'll see it again one of these days).
...cuddling up on the couch with a good book.
...all the free time I used to have (a distant memory after three weeks.)
...playing "Desperado" on the piano or painting watercolors.
...well, you probably get the point.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Before Shepherd's birth, I did several blog posts documenting my thoughts as my pregnancy wore down. After two weeks of motherhood, I thought I'd do one more post along those lines, so here it goes:
2. Labor and delivery was actually sort of awesome. I mean, it hurt, but it was still pretty amazing. At the end of the day, a sense of accomplishment and reward totally outweighs any memory of pain.
3. My brother is a stellar uncle. When Bro came this past week to meet Shepherd, he had lots of homework he needed to do. Instead, he stared at Shepherd with me. He is currently in Texas having a panic attack about how far behind he is on school work.
4. I spend what seems like 70 percent of the day feeding my son. The doctor's exact words at his two week check-up: "Well, Shepherd gained a little more wieght than we had expected." I could of told them that. My son is a pig.
5. I can get more done in an hour than I ever dreamed possible. Shepherd fell asleep in his swing this morning for a little over an hour. I ran around frantically cleaning because I know what I'll be doing once he wakes up (see number 4).
6. Speaking of Shepherd falling asleep in his swing, this is the only reason I have time to do this post right now:
8. BJ is the best father ever. He helps with baths and diapers and waking up at all hours of the night to (guess what) feed Shepherd.
9. And last but not least, see this picture:
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
That that love will never change.
That we are trying to do our best by him, and we apologize beforehand for all the times we are sure to screw up.
That stories matter, and the story one chooses to live out of changes everything.
That our great calling is "to do justice, love kindness, and walk humbly before your God" (Micah 6:8)
That that calling is difficult.
That following Christ is worth it even when it seems like it might not be.
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
1. My child will have the cutest bum on the block. Here are two pictures of the diapers BJ's mom (Nana) and I made this past weekend.
2. Grandma Farr would have loved those diapers.
3. I'm tired of being in labor. One of my pregnancy books described month nine as an entire month of labor, and in my experience, that is pretty accurate. I'll spare you any further detail.
4. Due to number 3, if this little boy pulls an Uncle Bro and comes two weeks late, he will be born grounded.
5. He's probably going to pull an Uncle Bro, isn't he?
6. The grandmothers are more anxious than BJ and I. When I see my mom calling, I now answer, "Hello. I'm not in labor. What's up with you?"
7. People who don't take advantage of all the free educational opportunities hospitals offer before giving birth are really missing out. In the past week, BJ and I finished our childbirth courses, I had an hour-long consultation with a lactation specialist, and we met with our pediatrician. I now know so much that I didn't know before. Of course, when you know nothing, you naturally have a lot to learn.
8. After the before-mentioned lactation consultation, I learned that babies spend a significant portion of each day eating. This means I will be spending a significant portion of each day being something akin to a soda fountain.
9. Gus's world is about to be turned upside down. He has started to sense that something is going on, so he is being really clingy. Since, as we all know, I am not even a little bit differentiated from this dog, my natural reaction is to be clingy in return. In other words, we're doing a lot of clinging here lately.
10. I'm going to sort of miss being pregnant. Don't be too shocked. I won't miss all the weird symptoms or the getting-fatter-by-the-day part. But I'll miss watching him move around and feeling him get the hiccups (which he does almost every night when I go to bed). I'll also miss our little games where I poke him to watch him move in response. He probably won't miss me poking him, though. I poke him a lot.
In conclusion and due to a request from one of my Fat Tuesday girls, here is a picture of the bump at 38 weeks. I am huge.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
In our class, BJ and I had an African-American little girl, so I immediately had to make the incredibly lame joke, "Do you have any questions for me, BJ?" Following the lame joke, we were taught how to change a diaper and change a onesie. It took me forever to change the diaper because I couldn't figure out exactly how high to place it on the baby dolls back, and I failed miserably at removing the onesie until BJ showed me how I was maneuvering around the arms completely wrong.
Next, we learned to swaddle. BJ did this part. His swaddle was absolute perfection. It was quickly executed, tight, neat looking, and all around wonderful. Of course, he's read up on swaddling and had slightly different opinions from the instructor on how to handle the arms, so he implemented his own technique. Regardless, it was the best swaddle in the class, and once again, I'm left very thankful to have such an efficient husband. It softens the edges on my stumbling attempt at life. (As a side note, how can I make it through college with a 4.0 and not be able to change a diaper on an inanimate object? I make no sense.)
Besides birth classes, we are also busy this week with a gospel meeting at church. Last night, one of the ladies at church came up to me to tell me something her 7-ish year old grandson had said. Apparently, I was walking across the parking lot to the church building when they arrived, and he said, "Grandma, BJ's girl has got something wrong with her belly." I don't know which is better: that I'm "BJ's girl" or that there is "something wrong" with my belly.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Now, I feel, is an opportune time to look at the different levels of cuteness displayed in this ensamble.
First, we have the teddy-bear ears on the hoody. Teddy-bear are by definition cute.
Then we have the little footsies that are bear faces. Footsies are cute, and bear faces are cute. This makes bear-faced footsies very, very cute.
Next, there is the little bear embroidered on the jacket. It is like a stamp of cuteness.
And lastly, we have the onesie. Onesies are the ultimate baby clothing, so therefore, they are the ultimate in cute. This particular onesie adds a whole new dimension off cuteness to the overall look by putting the bears with mooses. Mooses are cute.
I've already got our little guy's bag packed and ready to go with his coming-home outfit in place along with a hat knitted by his Nana and some swaddles.
With less than a month left in the pregnancy, I'm starting to get so excited I'm restless. When I'm too high strung to go to sleep, I pull out this outfit from the diaper bag and stare at it. It doesn't really help me wind down and sleep, but that isn't the point. The point is that in a few weeks I'm going to have a son, and I will bundle his cuteness into this cute outfit and bring him home, and that will be a truly happy occassion.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
The shower was lovely, and the baby is now basically fully equipped.
I've been working on his area in our room for the past few weeks. We finally got his bedding totally finished.
This is the gorgeous rocking chair my parents got us from the Amish village near our home.
Here is a close up of the bedding. Of course, Mom made the quilt, and I made the bumper pads from quilt scraps.
There is a lot more to the baby's area, but I'm going to save those pictures until I finish putting up everything from this past shower.
As a side note, I am now officially 8 months pregnant according to my baby book. Although I haven't really posted the traditional 'belly pictures' this whole pregnancy, I thought I would throw one up now that I'm nearing the finish line. Mainly, I decided to do this because I am now looking comically large and I thought everyone might enjoy a good laugh. BJ literally giggles every time he looks at me. For those of you who are thinking, "I just can't imagine BJ giggling," he now giggles. Just trust me.
Thursday, September 09, 2010
-I'm going to worry a lot about this person for the rest of my life. If he has a slow morning with little movement, I start panicking and poking him until he wakes up and does some aerobics for me. If I worry this much now, what am I going to do when he goes to Kindergarten or his first field trip or summer camp or (oh, my soul) college!?!
-I couldn't possibly get any bigger. Surely not. It couldn't happen. Ever. Right?
-This is going to hurt. I mean, getting him from point A to point B is going to hurt. Big time. (I don't care what anyone says, this thought has to run through the mind of every pregnant woman at some point.)
-I'm tired of keeping his name a secret. I like his name and I dislike secrets. See how this is a problem?
-A mouse might send me into premature labor. No, really, it might. I saw a mouse in our kitchen (first one ever) Tuesday night. I had a massive panic attack and made BJ immediately run to the store and get a whole slew of mouse-killing products. In the mean time, I'm still panicking. Last night, I wash clothe fell off of the kitchen counter onto me foot. Immediately assuming it was a mouse, I royally freaked to the point that I actually had a contraction. Let me make this clear: A wash rag I confused for a mouse gave me a contraction.
-My ribs hurt. He ran out of room about three weeks ago, but he keeps growing.
-I love how joyful babies make people. I contacted a professor of mine from ACU this week to ask for a reference, and in his response email, he congratulated me on the baby and told me a little about the birth of his son. It was a sweet story that made me day. Related to this point, people keep grinning at my belly everywhere I go. I wish I had a hidden camera on me to capture all the goofy smiles I get.
-My brother is going to be an uncle. This could get interesting.
-I have to pee, again. You've got to be kidding me.
-The constant rib pain and bladder discomfort and shortness of breath is making it very had to censor myself. I keep saying what I'm thinking, which is never a good thing. Poor BJ. He had no idea how much I was holding back before.
-If I love this little boy this much now, what will it be like after he is born? I keep trying to picture it, but it is beyond me.
As more thoughts come, I'll try to keep you posted. Then, 18 years from now, I can show my son what I was thinking as I awaited his arrival. And he can say, "Wow, Mom, that must have been really humiliating for you."
Thursday, September 02, 2010
BJ and I returned late Sunday evening from our "baby-moon" in Chicago. We had a truly wonderful time.
This is in front of the Art Institute.
And, of course, we got way too much cute stuff for the baby.